Last night was the first time I’ve sang with a choir in a very long time & I loved every minute of it. But it definitely felt strange to be wearing weights, needing a cane & wishing for my music folder with hand straps. The weirdest part was wondering if I should sit as I sing rather than stand. I used to stand or dance for hours while singing and here I am wondering if “the director would mind if I had to sit. Would he make a big deal about it or treat it as a normal thing & keep going? Really hoping if I have to sit that no one would notice.” As I finished our rehearsal I found myself stumbling into a prayer for surrender, strength & peace.

Wow has my race changed! The me who could do it all pre-WD definitely was running a different race with different motives. Not only am I running the race of life physically differently but also spiritually. Today I was just so thankful to be singing in a choir again. I was thankful for the fellow believers around me & a chance to worship God with a gift He’s given me. Old me would have been picking on every imperfection & would be focused on the goal of most outstanding singer. I still want to do my best but not for me or the world but for God. My goal is simply to have fellowship & worship.

Today’s passage hits in a totally different way than it used to. I realized today that I always read that passage as a solo player, “staying in my own lane”. But that’s not what it’s talking about at all. Paul is pointing out that we should be running according to the gospel & there we run as a team. We are one body in Christ & the body has to run together in tandem, which was really driven home in rehearsal tonight. We all needed to start together, breathe together, keep pace with one another, & worship together.